Mac book air died

Since my Mac book air was died, I also feel depressed these days. All the things disconnected and I feel lost. I am not enjoying in school, seems wasting time, energy and money. All my energy has burned out, I dont want to talk to anyone, especially I am very emotional and I just avoid to meet people.

I need to refresh but there are not space for me to do it. I feel very bored and digesting.

Moving home today

It was almost the 6th times I packed and unpacked for moving home, moving office, renovation move during 2 years.

This time, I try not to organize too much but just pack the stuffs. As when you unpack the stuffs, you will organize again. Finally this method works and more efficient.

Thanks for my old flatmate and new flatmate, they borrowed me their luggages and help me to move out and in. And I really thanks God to let me know Wei Li, she is the only one who speak Cantonese in Italy that I know. She is a specially lady who teach me a lot about point of view from Christianity. She is the only one I met who from Mainland China who dislike China and Chinese people thinking method.

She cannot communicate with any Chinese about her thoughts, she only share this with her parent and me. Unfortunately I understand why overseas people dislike Chinese, one of the reason is Chinese that you usually met in Aboard, they are from Wang Zhou. They are mainly care about how to earn money. Wealth to them are very important, I heard that they are very good in Biz like Jewish. The Chinese restaurants in Milan or Italy, owners probably are from Wen Zhou.

Other than this issue, you can also imagine the first immigrant groups from Mainland China, they were not well educated. The only chance to survive here is earning money. At least 2 or 3 generation to change the mindset from their family education.

Actually to me, China has a great tradition, art, poem, craftsmanship and other creations. But it has been closed the door and disconnected to the World for 30-50 years. They forced to know nothing and put to be poor. So people want to be rich and escape from poor and China. So in that worse situation, who take care of the continuity of culture. No order and not putting any effort to maintain and develop from what they created before.

So don't be silly, if you think Japanese are polite. They has stolen many many design and ideas from you already. But one thing they are good is, they are very concentrate on their professional. They have very good art sense and willing to modify to suit the Asian market.

I am fair to said China and Japan as I am mixed in a way. So when I was small children, I can see how pretty when I travel to Japan and how far ahead from Hong Kong.

Beside, when I talk with Wei about China and Europe, we talked about what is the centre of beauty, there is a way to reach. Otherise, now, all the people from their countries just dislike others. The judgement are mainly from their own background and point of view. So it is impossible to reach the harmony.

My classmates always laugh at me if I told them I have a Sophisticate and Mature talk to her. Indeed I learn a lot form her. She is the only one ask me need not to work hard. If I was tired, don't go to school. I am learning to slow down, to enjoy peaceful and not to afraid of future.

She teach me to enjoy what I see and live now. Living now, enjoy now. Not to worry about future and regret from the past. Yes, learning but still frightened to my future.

I feel very sleepy now to adopt new environment and will talk about this Chinese lady again.

A resting day

A resting day is without saying a word, walking alone via the park and going to the places I like. No hurry and no rushing time. It is the first day I feel warm in Milan. So I can really walking via the streets for a whole afternoon.

I saw many dogs enjoying the sunlight and running on the grassland in the park. One was so silly, he following the ball more than 20 mins, the ball is bigger than his body. He is very happy and jumping all the time. The owner ask me if I want to take picture with him, as they saw me taking pictures and video to him. He is just 1 year old and owner give him the big ball when he was a puppy, so he seems like playing football all the time.

I also saw a lot of families, they cycling in the streets and not much cars going via. I like the road which is made by small stones, they are very beautiful. In Hong Kong, I even cannot walk straightly as the roads are narrow and full of people. Everywhere are very messy, only shopping malls, materials and busy city life.

a place I like

photos by Hoi chi

It is very interesting that before I come milan, I did visited one of my friend's friend facebook photos, he is an architect from my university and now living in UK. He always visit exhibition and capture a lot of installation and display in europe. I was always impressed by his photos. And he is one of our freelance photographer.

I was impressed by one of the shop he visited, the atmosphere and environment is so great. And I cannot believed that I really come here occasionally.

I like the white color here, the garden with a lot of plants. The tall windows with sunlight going via. The atmosphere seems like France more than Italy. The plants hanging out from 3rd floor till the ground floor, it is just like a plants wall.

And I hope to live in this hotel next time when I come back to milan. And hope some of my friends if you come to Milan, you can stay in this hotel:

http://www.10corsocomo.com/contenuti/downloads/10Corsocomo_3rooms_press.pdf

today thinking

Almost sick today. I feel bad that I cannot concentrate on the lectures, means that cannot work on project and cannot listen to the topics are double lost.

These days, the professors who come from other area, their topics are great. But for fresh designers may not aware how important of these knowledges. Actually Design cannot stand alone, it is a kind of commercial activities.

Especially after several years, we may have our own brands and companies. So it is really hard for designer to run a brand. I really want to know how the brand like Vivian Westwood, Agnes b, the ladies are 60 or 70 years old, but they are so creative and also can running a brand till now.

The professor topic today is not new- about innovation, but his talk is so inspire to me. He is very energetic and very jumpy person, especially I see his desktop is messy like me, I think he is the same character to me. But of course he is very clever not like me.

These years after running Cloud 9, my knowledge shall reach other areas beside design, so I find it is interesting. I am much interested to reach these kind of topics. Yes, why made a company cannot run, is about wrong decision making on procedure & process of works. Another is financial decision.

I hope I will find some time to review the lectures as I am too lazy.

I still wondering I shall take a Fine Art course, a MBA course more than this.

So tired... to speak

And tired like I cannot function to speak English these days. So I try to speak Cantonese to Selen, when I speak Cantonese, may be I can make up my mind. Yes, I know she can read my mind. And I translate Cantonese back to English.

Start in Feb.

I cannot believed the project can started from Dec. last year to Early Feb. this year. From Milano to Hong Kong and back to Milano, still working. It is really suffering to most of our classmates. I really get into a quite emotional way that is foolish and stupid.

We behaved like secondary school students. It is really wasting time and energy. It is just a 2 weeks project and can be finished.

Why I get into this emotional is I really see my team mates got hurt. Be scored, be shouted that I cannot accepted. I should be matured enough to handle this case but I realized I am affected by emotion a lot.

Try to make myself more happy. Even in this tough time. I shall upload some photos. We have good chiefs in our group, most of them cook very well. We enjoy a lot on sharing food and making food, especially for whole day working.