Eat Pray Love

It is amazing to watch "Eat, Pray, Love" in the plane after 2 months trip from Italy. Many friends told me to watch it when I was in Hong Kong before this trip.

I feel really release after these 2 months, so incredible. I think I really forgive myself. I know I will still doing stupid decisions. I know that I cannot follow the majority. I know in our life, we gain and we lost.

So I am afraid back to Hong Kong. I dislike the compressed environment, compressed thinking method, I dislike lack of choices, I dislike I will sallowed by the big tide and lost again. When successful means having a mansion, having good title, having money, woman getting married before 30, working very hard, prepare money as soon as you can to afford retirment. I was following the rules to achieve success, I feel something wrong and the sign keep knocking on my heart.

Indeed, during this period, I realised that everything surrounding us are not belonging to us. God brings back somedays. We just can do our best to treat them well, we cannot force others to follow our wishes. The things not belong to you is never belong to you.

Thanks God to take away what is not belonging to me as I am not mature to face it.

sleep peacefully dong dong

My little dong dong,

I miss you, sleep & rest peacefully in heaven.

from Sister.

Enjoy your project or you'll be lost

After I have change to share my real feeling among this project with my classmates tonight, I free much better.

So during the way home and waiting 20 mins for a tram coming, I just awake! From Angry to happy. I think the project is nothing comparing the memorable life in Milano. I shall like my project, my work!

If you like your works, you will do your best! Although it is failure! Failure is nothing!

I will enjoy the project.

Simple is good

Borrow from Hanna Melin, http://www.hannamelin.com

Simple is good so I like this drawing.

I am thinking to draw a story of dongdong, I remember when he joined our family. I spend a lot of time with him, using him as a topic of my project in University. When I was living in Japan, I missing him a lot and I am afraid he would die. And now he is too old and I just leave him. I know Mom taking care of him is very tough, but I also fightening to face if he is leaving us.

I hope he know we love him so much. I hope he can go peacefully without pain.

Mom cannot sleep well every night to take care of him, papa is forced to look after him and cannot go out so often. Mom treat him as a child, who is always a child for 16 years. (he come to our home when he is 2 years old). She never give up to save our dog for extending his life one year and one year. And now 2010 is going to the end.

But I really hope Mom can be happy and do not force others to follow her instruction. She insist and to do anything that she believed and for her life time keep doing it. But people surrounding her are often feel hard.

Applied Art

I like some architecture, furniture & interior design here in Milan. I like the using of space, clean and artistic feeling. The visual presentation in this shop is nice, very clean and using red line to linkage the idea. I still feel I am passionate with this visual communication and thinking about how to apply in my jobs.

I keep searching for a relax, comfortable and quiet cafe to have afternoon tea and I found California Bakery. Indeed the one located near Duomo is too crowed and the tables are too close together. That made me missing the cafes in Japan, with nice environment and cozy feeling.

And I talked about my job with my classmate, I still like my pervious job that provide me chances to manage many things about Art direction. It can be related to styling, photography style, props and illustrations. I can decided the location for projects, HK, Japan and Europe.

I am thinking a much suitable way to work and to live. I dislike boring but not willing to have too much pressure. I am still scaring to work with other people as I am not easy to be open and work with, I think. During this course, I am thinking about it. If it is my job, I will be more insist of my idea and Art direction. So how can I compromise with others if I go back to be employer. An open mind, listening ears, understanding heart and good communication skill are very important. Can I improve myself?

I realized almost one year, I am without working. And after finished this course, will be 2 years. I cannot believed that! So I have 9 years need not following others, can I really become an employer? What kind of job is fit for me?

Rainning cats & dogs

I don't think I have changed in these years, I like Art, Nature and Animals. That is why I like Europe. Art and Nature are easy to find and access. Even dogs here are very happy. The owners love to go out with them. Once I saw in Valentino's counter, the dog was shopping with his owners.

In Hong Kong, some brands are positioned very high and people dare not to go inside. But here even the dogs can go inside.

But today is just around 1 degree with rain and snow, it is a bit crazy that the owners still bring the dogs out!

I often think I get stuck in this city, cannot understand their system, their language. And even the weather is sadly rainning almost everyday. I hate this feeling and want to be out of the box!

1st Dec 2010 in Milano

This blog is opened in 2007 but I didn't write a lot, especially after I handling Cloud 9 by myself.

I just read some articles that I wrote before, many sad stories. But they are all my history, the difficulties I go via. And I read one article that mentioned I want to leave my works and go to Venezia. Finally, I really come.

I am now in Italy, this is the first place that I visited in Europe after I guadurated in Poly U. I have a deep memory of Italy & Greece. So I decided to come, this is one of my dream.

Thanks God that I have faith to achieve my dreams, so God please give me big faith to face my life positively.

I visited some of my classmates' blog that make me starting to write again.